Hi, Sweetheart,
I was just thinking, what would you like on television? Do you have any shows you actually watch up there?
Yeah, I know you'd say, "Silly Daddy, I'm in Heaven, why would I watch TV?" I was just pondering stuff that I've been interested in and it makes me think.
Yeah, I know you'd say, "Silly Daddy, I'm in Heaven, why would I watch TV?" I was just pondering stuff that I've been interested in and it makes me think.
We love because we want to, just as I wanted to adopt you.
After praying for a little one for quite a while God seemed to say in my
heart that He had one for me but that He wanted to see if I would
dedicate you the same way Hannah dedicated Samuel to the Lord. And, I
said I would.
I know God has a bigger plan, a perfect one, it is one that made me sad but I know I will see you someday where we will celebrate for ever. In the meantime, I think about how you would have enjoyed talk of the "Full House" book Universe vs. TV Universe - and now we have NetU. There is so much fun with the chronology some online friends and I did, which any readers of this can see here under "the show". There was so much fun fanfiction with stories I've done and that a good online friend did which I helped with.; his stuff is also there under fanfiction, under Paul Austin.
Anyway, "Full House" is such a wonderful, sweet family show, just perfect for my tastes in how they always show such unconditional love. With the Chronology in a way it is as if I did raise you because of how much I visualize everything I say and do and even my writing. I know it's not the same, but maybe with my handicaps it's more of the same than it would be for some people. (And, I much prefer the Book Universe with D.J. as a proactive mother figure and much more giving.)
I know God has a bigger plan, a perfect one, it is one that made me sad but I know I will see you someday where we will celebrate for ever. In the meantime, I think about how you would have enjoyed talk of the "Full House" book Universe vs. TV Universe - and now we have NetU. There is so much fun with the chronology some online friends and I did, which any readers of this can see here under "the show". There was so much fun fanfiction with stories I've done and that a good online friend did which I helped with.; his stuff is also there under fanfiction, under Paul Austin.
Anyway, "Full House" is such a wonderful, sweet family show, just perfect for my tastes in how they always show such unconditional love. With the Chronology in a way it is as if I did raise you because of how much I visualize everything I say and do and even my writing. I know it's not the same, but maybe with my handicaps it's more of the same than it would be for some people. (And, I much prefer the Book Universe with D.J. as a proactive mother figure and much more giving.)
It would have been hard since I never had the money, but I
got some "Full House" books that I did because I enjoyed putting together the
chronology and the Lord used Full House for other things, too. Because
of it, a fellow half a world away saw an example of Jesus Christ that I
tried to be where he wouldn't have otherwise. You'll get to meet him,
too, as while because of various things it's hard for him to come out and say it, the Lord has given me peace through a few things that he has trusted Jesus Christ to save him from his sin, which anyone can do, we're each only a single, sincere prayer of repentance to Jesus away from eternal life, as shown here.
I would have had such fun telling you how God uses many
little things in our lives to help us. I don't know if you'd have been
like book Stephanie or who you would have been like. (I know you are
very unique, but sometimes those templates help me to understand things and people a little.) But, then again, maybe you
wouldn't have even enjoyed Full House as much as you would have playing
baseball or something. I don't know if we'd have written things
together, though I like to think that we'd have shared in some of what
I've written. (TV Unvierse and Book Unvierse stories of mine are also up on that site I linked to earlier.)
I know this, though. I love you, even though we have not
yet met. Those gifts that I would have given you have gone to help
someone else now; i sent them a couple weeks ago. But, who knows, maybe God will have someone for me someday.
Or, maybe I will just wait until I am caught up in the air and we
celebrate as we gather around the throne. Either way, even if I had the
money and I suddenly adopted 10 kids, you will always be special to me.
Because I know God has used you, too, in ways that are hard to describe, and in some ways specific to the types of challenges I was born with.
I still have my old toys and books and all the stuffed
animals that I had when I was little, and I have given them to the Lord
as well to use as He knows is best. I trust God because I know He is perfect love,
wisdom, etc.. If you couldn't be with me, I know you are with the best sitter possible, and while I still
miss you I am so glad you don't have to deal with the turmoil of this
world. I'm so glad that God loved me enough many years ago to save me
from my sins when I called on Him by faith to save and forgive me.
It is because of Jesus I know that I'm going to Heaven. And, because of Jesus I know you are safe and I will see you someday.
So, whether or not you'd havebeen a fan of "Full House," whether or not we'd have written stuff together, no matter what, I know that now, you probably look down on me with all these silly little things and laugh, becasue nothing in this world compares to the glory which is to come. As the Bible says, eye has not seen nor ear heard nor has entered into the heart of man the wonders that await us.
So, since it's all a bit silly to you anyway, I'm sure you understand your silly Daddy following some of this stuff on Twitter and just presuming that maybe you could have been a huge fan. that maybe you'd hve kept the books and enjoyed them, or watched the show and had fun little discussions, on your level at whatever age you were, about how the books are different and how on TV D.J.had to step in realistically and reacted but was proactive in books, and so on. I giggle as I picture you going to school - well, church, the way things are now you'd be homeschooled - and telling all your little friends how we only see 1/33th of a person's lives in a sitcom and stuff's not over in 30 minutes like other people say, and all those other little things.
Yes, I know you understand. Because your silly Daddy has other little nuances that are just part of what makes each of us unique, and little failings that are part of what shows we each need Christ's redemptive work on the cross to save us. And, tough I can't reach out and hug you tonight, I know you see in my heart how much I care, and somehow the Lord gives me peace that feels like a great big hug Himself. Because, that's what I always said when i was little, that Heaven was like a great big hug that lasts forever.
I'm glad you can enjoy that now, not becasue of anything but that Jesus Christ died for your sins, too, and rose from the dead,a nd since you died before you could understand that need to trust Him by faith and call on Him to save you, He saved you and you are covered by the blood of the Lamb of God.
Till we meet and enjoy that blessedness together.
Love,
Daddy
So, since it's all a bit silly to you anyway, I'm sure you understand your silly Daddy following some of this stuff on Twitter and just presuming that maybe you could have been a huge fan. that maybe you'd hve kept the books and enjoyed them, or watched the show and had fun little discussions, on your level at whatever age you were, about how the books are different and how on TV D.J.had to step in realistically and reacted but was proactive in books, and so on. I giggle as I picture you going to school - well, church, the way things are now you'd be homeschooled - and telling all your little friends how we only see 1/33th of a person's lives in a sitcom and stuff's not over in 30 minutes like other people say, and all those other little things.
Yes, I know you understand. Because your silly Daddy has other little nuances that are just part of what makes each of us unique, and little failings that are part of what shows we each need Christ's redemptive work on the cross to save us. And, tough I can't reach out and hug you tonight, I know you see in my heart how much I care, and somehow the Lord gives me peace that feels like a great big hug Himself. Because, that's what I always said when i was little, that Heaven was like a great big hug that lasts forever.
I'm glad you can enjoy that now, not becasue of anything but that Jesus Christ died for your sins, too, and rose from the dead,a nd since you died before you could understand that need to trust Him by faith and call on Him to save you, He saved you and you are covered by the blood of the Lamb of God.
Till we meet and enjoy that blessedness together.
Love,
Daddy
